I can feel my pulse
As it twists in my chest
Every time
I think about you
And I hate this
And I'm desperately trying not to.

Trying-frantic-not to
I'm trying to avoid
I'm trying so hard not to
Not to look at you that way
Trying so hard not to
Trying to keep my mind away

And I want to fade
Fade in on myself
Till the shadow will hide me
And I can
Slip away so silently
That no one will notice I'm gone
Just slip away.

And I will watch you from the shadows
Because I just can't help myself
And I am sinking into this
Sinking through and through
And I feel like I am worse
More desperate day by day.

And maybe you'll be gone soon
Or maybe I'll be here
And I know that you won't notice
Because I know that you don't care
And I don't know where I'm heading
But I'm hoping
You'll be there.