I remember how
Not too many
Months ago
My body
Self
Made me sick
And I felt Weak
Fat
Ugly and Flat
And I wanted to change myself
My hair
My clothes
My skin
I remember how
Not too many
Months ago
I tried to make myself
Be sick
I was gagging on my image
Choking on spit
Trying to lose myself
In it
I remember how
Not too many
Months ago
I had a crush
On this kid I knew.
And I was thrown
So off balance
Didn't know what to do with myself
Till one night I sat down
And it was just gone
Leaving me
Maybe a little emptier still.
I remember how
Not too many
Months ago
I woke up at peace with myself.
And I loved myself
My hair
My clothes
My skin
And I stopped
Eating too much
Stopped trying to be sick
Stopped wantng
To smash mirrors
Because now
I am calm
In myself.